Friday, November 30

Breeze


There are approximately 85 candles, arranged not so neatly in wooden rows. They are indoors, but a window, distant, yet dangerous, is open. It is far away, you can't see it, but it is open. There is a breeze blowing. It is cold and hard, it is like an ice-dagger. It is sharp, and it can cut through flesh, it can rip existence apart. It is cold.

A man, in a brown waistcoat, is in a rush. He wears a black top hat, a tie, shirt and pant, he is in a rush. He will miss an important meeting unless he hurries. He hurries. He brushes past the candles, he doesn't notice them, or how important they are, he just walks by, and it is tragic. 7 candles are blown out. His waistcoat brought about a gust of wind, and it extinguished seven candles. Seven flames are reduced to ashes and wax.

78 candles left burning, not too bad. They are burning away. Here and there, the wick of a few candles is reduced to wisps, and the candles are wasted. But that doesn't stop the others from burning. No, they burn on with full vigour, some flames reaching tremendous heights, some just embers, like babies, like thoughts that long to be turned into actions. The big, monstrous flames are dangerous. Very, and one was so intense that it burnt the entire candle, and a few around it too. Slowly, the candles grew weary of burning, and they just would not, just would not any longer.

61 candles. They are strong. They are not strong enough. A gentle breeze sifts through the air, a disturbance of some sort, to some extent a predator, to some extent a blessing. The man who so unknowingly killed a few candles is relieved, the breeze brushing his face, he will be on time. The candles on the wooden shelves, burning here and there, were a plinth for their dancing flames. The breeze was not satisfied. It blew its way to the candle stand, and waited there, until the fear of the candles was sensed. Then, it blew across the entire right side of the shelf, extinguishing all those candles, including a few in the centre and centre-bottom-left. Murderer.

28 candles. Scared, but they are the strongest of the lot. What dangers awaited them ? They did not know, we do not know. We shall soon find out. The window, the menacing, grim, grinning window. The rascal. It widens its mouth, bares its teeth, and blows with all its might. A purple wind blows through the window. Oh, and it is not an opaque purple, so we cannot see it; it is transparent. It blows through the window, the menacing, grim, grinning window, straight to our candles, and tugs, it does not blow, no, it tugs away their light. The candles fight.

The candles fight, the flames they dance in a defensive mode, they dodge the wind, the wind lunges for an attack but misses. The candles are brave. However, they are not so brave as to withstand the might of the wind. It blows, and one by one, the candles succumb. Not all, no.

There is one, on the top left corner, it is glowing bright, it overcame its battle with the wind. It glows brighter than all the candles put together, yet it is not bright enough. The night is dark.

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A kindly man walks by, and he sees the burning candle, the sole survivor. He wonders what he can do with it, and he wonders why it is the only one shining. He doesn't receive an answer, however, he decides to do something. He picks up the candle, the sole survivor, and places it gently, taps each other candle twice on the wick, and leaves.

He re-lit all the other candles, with the one glowing ember. The battle has been won.

The night is light. The night is bright. It is illuminated. The room is elucidated.

One candle, just one, burned on.

Friday, November 23

Animusic

Okay Siddhesh came over and made me listen to this thing. And watch. And its mindblowing. And its so DAMN creative. And Wayne Lytle and David Crognale (the creators) have SO much talent. You should watch these:

Resonant Chamber (My Personal Favorite)
http://youtube.com/watch?v=l1hqF9nqabQ&feature=related

Future Retro (Most Catchy)
http://youtube.com/watch?v=fd3LwxCzuGY&feature=related

Acoustic Curves
http://youtube.com/watch?v=cCGvbZdCVFE&feature=related

If you notice, the mechanical arms are playing the exact notes a proper instrumentalist would play. Which means the creators knew how to play ALL those instruments, perfectly. Also, they composed all those songs themselves. Half of the most recognized bands in the world can't come close to these masterpieces. I mean, just look at the precision, the melody, the talent. Seriously, this thing is mindblowing. There are many more, I'll leave them to be discovered by you yourself. And enjoy, I'm sure you will.

Saturday, November 17

Alexithymia

Apart from that glimmering hope, there is nothing there that I could possibly see would determine my happiness. That hope, and that Faith, and that dream. Who can tell what tomorrow will bring ? Who can tell if tomorrow will come ? But I see it in your eyes... all the answers. No, not in person. No, I'm too scared.

There are so many things I want to tell you. But I can't, you see. I'm already at the end of the world. The edge. There are songs I want to sing. There is music I want to make. There are many skies above me. I will cross them all to get to you. There is distance, and there are thorns. There is time, and there is void. My void is not empty anymore. I can see you. You're there, in my mind. There is colour around me. There is passion within me. And there is a fusion of hope, and dreams, and answers, that I seek.

There is only time. I can't say what I want to say. The tunnel is narrowing. You're so far away from me. I doubt the distance will ever get reduced.. I wish. But I've given up on most of my wishes.. they're discarded.

Il fait froid. Je faut aller mais je ne veux rien sauf des temps avec vous. Il est vider. Il fait froid.

Wednesday, November 14

Silent Partner

I am walking alone. It is difficult.

The sun is cold. The moon is cold. I am cold. It is summer but I am cold.

There is one image in my head, and I cannot get it out, and I do not want to get it out, and I won't get it out. It is the most beautiful image. I don't feel okay.

There is a furore in my mind, a revolt. Always, I am wrong. I have no space.

I am walking alone. There's someone there with me, but I am alone. You are with me, yet you are not near me.

You will always be with me.

I am walking alone. It is difficult. Alone I await the storm.

You will always be with me.

Alone I await the storm.

I am walking alone.

Durch die Unendlichkeit.

Friday, November 2

Farthest Apart.

I want you to read this one day. Perhaps, I want you to want to read this someday. But you would never know how, or that this even existed. Maybe this didn't really exist.

*----*

I am a man who waits a lot.
I wait for you.
Don't wait for me.

Sometimes, I say things I don't want to.
Those times, those times I hope, I hope that you can really hear what I want to say.
It's like I speak a different language.
A language of opposites.
I'm okay. I'm not okay.

Don't wait for me. Wait for me.

Sometimes I wish the image I see in the looking glass was clay.
To mould it into what would fit your heart.
There is a thread and it will break.
The thread of my sanity.

Can you feel the famine raging in my heart ?
The roar of denial, splitting asunder my very own hope ?
And then I, like the fool you see, put the pieces back together.
Can you see my riven wish ?

What more must I give ? I'll give with just enough room for a spontaneous second thought.
There is care I wish from you.
There is care. That I wish you'd give.

This is no language of opposites. I have hidden it away like I hide away the words that I wish to convey but don't matter; this is a language of truth: I wish for some acceptance. Some capsule of belonging, some collision of beliefs.

Wait. What is this I see ?

A splintered destination. Awaiting me.